((A correspondance to the recent poll... I wasn't going to rant and usually I don't care about this horseshit but since I realize a lot really dislike me - I shall have to express myself + I cuss a lot. And I also don't care if you inside your mind bitchin' about my journal and the way I write. The fuck I care!)

*You don't even know me and you have some kind of grudge against me already!? = Lame! Are you too shallow to think? Is there a braincell in you? Do you need to see a doctor?? Or did you forget to take medicine? Are you mentally disturbed? Are you suffering from being an attention whore "disorder"??? Are you being possessed by a jealous spirit that needs to be exorcise? Are you a retard ho? Are you an idiot? Having trouble with your miserably life? Want to take your life? (feel free to do so if you want). What is your fucking problem?*

I'm being treated "better" than whoever selfish cow that voted for "I can't stand that someone treats you better than me!! What makes you SO special?" Oh, BOOHOO! Bitch, puhlease! I was trying to be me! Is that illegal? Why do I get the feeling that I always getting blamed for having someone treats me like a god and better than anyone else?! What a fucking donkey anal hole of lie! I was/am trying to be myself, I talk to people so I can become friend with everyone. In reality, I never had a close friend and let alone best friend. Why can't anyone give me a FUCKING chance?!
I can't believe it, trying to be friendly and I get the labelled as the bad guy for stealing attention, friends and stuff.
My advice, YOU who're like this should really need to go out more (and possibly get laid as well)! Because only a sad and bitter person would be jealous and bitching on how someone is better than you.
Besides I haven't even considered myself as being treated SPECIAL in any way - I don't know how someone would come up with such a thing. What proof do you have? I think YOU selfish fat/skinny cows
are just being goddamn jealous and having a sad, sad, SUPER SAD life (or is in the moodswing season of before period) so you enjoy being hostile at me.

Frankly, I don't think I have been treated special in any way at all. How you see this, is really remarkably selfish way.

- Trying to be friendly = So, I'm a liar?

- Being friend with someone and she/they treat(s) me like a close friend that I never had = I'm the bad guy who's being seen as the enemy because I'm being treated as "VIP" or "first class"!? What?

- Being myself = And I'm being seen as fake and phony

- Being normal = Define normal, I'm a freak to them

- Being funny = People bitching for being too rude...

- Talking to male friends = Bitches are jealous because I would have all the guy's attention on me only

- Sharing something on DA = Claimed to be a show off

- Find someone as a close friend = Being seen as an obstrucle of destroying someone's friendship

- Love my work and talking about it too much = Being called a arrogant bitch

- Being nice to people = Allegedly being mistaken for craving attention (maybe I should be the rude to people so they can understand me more? Fucking "kwai"!!!!!!)

- Have no friend = Emo

- Sharing what I have = Show off

- Giving opinions = claim of being jealous

- Writing about your bad childhood = Wanting sympathy from others (which is not true. I don't do that!
I don't care if you have sympathy for me or not - I'm guessing you don't anyway).

I like people treat me nicely means nice like a normal people would do and not like a freak and at least not ignoring me. But YET, there's always someone who simply acts all jealousy and thinking that I was/am going to steal someone's attention or another friends from them.

So, how do you want them to treat me? Like a third class citizens? The slave?? Is that what you want? IS THAT IT? What kind of homo sapien are you! Don't you have humanity in you - how would you like if someone treats you like that, huh? HOW WOULD YOU LIKE IT???
I can't express the hatred for such dreadful envious people. There's absolutely no other word that I can describe. I usually ignore this horseshit but sometimes I really find it funny and weird at a time, it makes me think you do good, being friendly but yet not many plays that game with you. I'm wondering...Some people are really hard to please.

If I get people to treat me better than you and what are you gonna do about it? No really. What can YOU do?? Attack me with tanning oil and butter knife?? Cut and paste or draw my OCs in a weird manner? Oh, I would love that - IF you manage to draw my OCs and give it a likeness. I'd be amazed or perhaps blackmail me with your chainmail? Yeah so I can print out and wipe my ass with it or use it as doormat!

That's exactly I was thinking - you can't do a horseshit. Geez...Fucking "kwai"!!! ไอ้ห่ากิน!!!

You're the type that I wish murder was legal and there was no sin. I really wished so. Since I can't seem to be able to convince them anything. They're being covered by the dark clouds of jealousy. Hating for me just because I'm being treated better than you. ¬_¬... Uh... You really need to have your sanity checked.

Can you believe it? I'm trying to be friendly but instead get the blame for obstrucle someone's friendship. Is this the thank I get?? Is it?

If I am to be blamed, then please I have a request and that is if you could remove me from your friend list/watch list. Please. If I am such an obstrucle to you. Remove me now and I'll never ruin your fucking friendship. Why should you stress yourself?

If only you know me better, I will be a very good friend to you if you treat me with respect and NO I won't tolerate JEALOUS who wants me to stop doing what I love best or the "I can't stand that you're better than me or people treat you BETTER than me" attitude!
If you're that kind of person and having something against me, then I want a request. A request of remove me from your friend/watch list. I mean, what's the point of having me around when you don't like me (I don't know why would someone have something against me when they don't even know me is one hell of a mystery) - so that's a request.

And 2 voted for they're being jealous at me and wanting me to stop doing whatever I was doing. Well I got bad news for you, you jealous fat (or skinny) cow walking on two legs; I WILL NEVER STOP WHAT I AM DOING! NEVER WILL BE! I'LL KEEP DOING IT UNTIL YOU GO INSANE! Keep being jealous, keep it up - I encourage you. Why? Because you're simply feeding my motivation. I bet you didn't know that, did you? Well now you know. So I really encourage you to become more jealous of me, so I can get a 100% motivation and I'll definitely draw more. I know it's strange, maybe it's a psychological thing...

Anyhow, I can't stop and will NEVER stop doing what I am doing. Hah! Suck on that, betch!

Again, IF you don't even like me or have something against me...Why the FUCK don't you just unwatched and remove me from your goddamn list!? Don't you think you could use your braincell on something more useful than having the effort on trying to "destroy" me or find a way to make me miserable or being jealous on me WHEN YOU FUCKING HELL DON'T EVEN KNOW ME - IN PERSON! Fucking retard! How could you possibly dislike someone who you barely know?!

Does anyone here ACTUALLY even KNOW ME OUTSIDE DA???????????? No! Thought so!

I've to be honest with things I've compared to the sad, sad DA peers who are jealous at me for no or whatever reason it is. And I don't care what you will think. You can see, I am not the better than anyone else either. And I'm not asking for your sympathy for this. I just want you to take consideration about why should you even be jealous at someone who's NOT worth a penny!

1. I had the worst childhood in my life. I'm pretty sure a lot had been bullied. I had been one but more of a physically and verbally - just because I was different. Being different is what people call you a freak.

2. I never get an A at school. I fail a lot (I'm not an A student, so deal with it!)

3. I don't have a car and let alone driving licence

4. I haven't got a decent job that I want - a career job as concept artist/graphic novel artist. Instead, I'm working in a lousy place which suits for me since I've AvPD (no not Alien vs. Predator disorder!) but the salary sucks and I can't do anything about it and hope for saving for my plan...if I even get a chance (which I never do).

5. I didn't even get to go into a proper university without have to quit because of financial issues. I have to teach myself to do Photoshop, draw and all those art things that you get from school, I had to self-taught it. Don't you think those who are in art school are lucky enough to even get in an art field? Shut up and draw!

6. I had to go back a year or two just because of my learning disality and math disability that I fell behind from the rest of the students at junior high and high school.

7. I don't even think I'm pretty in any way, there're people out there who're prettier than me + they've nice body than me.

8. I don't even have a boyfriend! You would think if I'd have one I wouldn't be even have the time to waste on writing this crap.

9. I NEVER had a good life like normal kids - in fact, I can't recall that I ever had a good childhood.

10. I didn't even have a best friend and let alone close friend(s) as a child. You can say, I'm a complete loner longing for a friend with same interests as I do.

11. Even up to today, I still don't have a close friend outside DA (offline life).
And when I do find one in a life time, there'll always be someone who's jealous at me as allegedly thinking I would get all the attention and stealing someone from them. Is this all you care about? To get more attention and being treated better than me? Is that what you want? Well you can have that, you can choke on it as many times as you want. I hope you die with it as well. I curse you!

I guess I'm meant to not being friend with anyone since everytime I do and THIS shit happens. Every fucking time. I'll take it for granted that I'll NEVER want to make friend with those who see me as an obstrucle or a danger to their own friendship.

I really can't have a happy life at all can I?

This is why I don't want to have a female friend. Because some fews are full of nothing but jealousy and enviousness. Enjoy to make your life miserable or hating you for no reason. I enjoy the company of nice female friends who arent selfish bastards but not this. Not like this.

12. When I was a 5, I almost got killed by someone in the family just because he was drunk and mom fled in terror. He was trying to drown me. Fucking abusive alcoholic dad! I hate YOOooou!

13. And I still live with my mom...at this age. Sadly.

14. I've debt of.......a lot. And I mean A LOT.

And that's supposedly should make you having a different thinking (or not, since no one cares). Now, I wonder, why should you even be jealous at me?! I have NOTHING for you! If you want to be jealous, why not go and be jealous at someone who's more famous and popular!

That's all rant for today. I hope you really enjoy that reading or just fast reading for the goodies which I have none. Maybe I should go away for a while. I bet a lot love that!
Oh yeah, I bet you like it. Maybe a delete button would you use to make me stop doing what I am doing, huh?